I'll be back. I'll be okay. I'll be brand new me.

meet me here (:

ps : saja berubah angin, membawa diri untuk seketika. jangan rindu aku :')

it's me, little ain~

chaiyok! :)

saya harap awak kuat. saya sayang awak :)

p/s : you can cry as much as you want. it's okay :)

love.

ainzulkefli.

i'm fine today.

"The best way to avoid disappointment is not to expect anything from anyone."

- Twitter, Idillionaire.   

thank you all.
thank you for everything.
thank you for whatever the reasons are.

it's me, little ain~

stand up.

"Today, love yourself enough to walk away from anyone who doesn't love you enough".

- Twitter, The Single Women.

it's me, little ain~

i'm fine :)

in the mood of wanting you..

***************************************

Lost and insecure,

you found me,

you found me

Lying on the floor surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late, you found me, you found me!

The early morning, the city breaks

And I've been calling for years and years and years and years

And you never left me no messages

You never sent me no letters

You got some kind of nerve taking all I want!

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?

- The Fray, You Found Me

it's me, little ain~

I want to know where I belong

cinta terindah :)

how i wish to come with you

how i wish to make it through..

it's me, little ain~

berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul.

10.10.10.

sepatotnya arini, abengoh kawen.

tapi sayangnya,

cinta tak kesampaian.

ikatan pertunangan terputus di tengah jalan.

aku sedih. namun aku pasti, abengoh berkali-kali sedihnya.

ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini.

takde jodoh.

mungkin yang lebih baik sedang menunggu.

bersabarlah.

it's me, little ain~

payahnye!

Mi Manchi.

Mi Manchi.

Mi Manchi.

Mi Manchi.

urghhhh!

it's me, little ain~

New Moon

tengok Facebook seseorang.

monolog dalaman, "owh. tu girlfriend baru die."

they look perfect for each other.

gembira untuk dia. harap-harap kali ni berkekalan.

semoga sampai ke jinjang pelamin, dan anak cucu.

aku doakan dia bahagia.

and i have reasons not to fall in love again :)

it's me, little ain~

simptoms

takde motif post entry ni.

baru je selesai buat eksperimen dengan belog eksperimen aku. hehe :) tapi tak publish lagi la ek yang tu. memang takde apa pon. nama je eksperimen. konon gempaq la tu ek. ces. perasan laa kau.

herm. dalam belog lagi satu tu, nak tulih pasal cinta-cintun je, boleh tak? sebab lately ni, aku rasa macam dapat simptom-simptom tak betoi sikit. hiya. aku tatau apa penyakit ni. nak berangan je kejenya haa. nak sengeh sorangsorang, macam kerang busuk dah aku rasa ghupe aku sekarang ni. hati pon macam berbunga je ek. haila haila haila. cekodok pisang la weh.

dah enam tahun tak rasa simptom macam ni. sekarang, menjadijadik pulak. haih. dalam resah, ada bahagia. dalam risau, ada gembira. dalam teringat, ada rindu :)

eeyyuuh! pi la mabook.

selamat malam :)

p/s : May sudah.

it's me, little ain~

sampai di sini saje.

semalam. waktu tengah makan kat cafe. aku didatangi best friend, since uitm lagi. die bagitau aku, die dah broke up dengan girlfriend die. aku half tekejot, half tak tekejot. sebab aku macam dah expect, somehow mende ni akan jadi jugak. lagipon, dah bape ari dudok bercerita kat aku pasal masalah die.

herm. masalah paling kecik bagi aku adelah masalah paling besar untuk girlfriend die. ye. aku cube menjadi realistik. kerana manusia semuanya berbeza. cara berpikir etc. jadi aku tak boleh salahkan sape-sape. in fact, sapela aku untuk menyalahkan sapesape kan. walhal, aku punye la tak expert mende-mende alah macam ni.

aku kesian. sympathy. tapi aku tamau jadi empathy sebab aku tau rase die camane. saket, kan? basically, aku tau la ape rase tu. cumanye. kes kawan aku ni, bukan betrayal punye kes. so, oke la kan. hiya. kalo betrayal punye kes, takkanla aku nak cakap tu masalah kecik bagi aku kan. kalo aku la kan, masalah nak break sebab betrayal alah ni, memang aku cakap "off you go" la kan.

buat ape nak simpan. ye la. sayangkan relationship ni. tapi jangan sampai saket ati. kite bercinta sebab nak bahagia. bukan nak merana. itu tak payah. sume masalah ade jalan penyelesaian, kan? kalo dah tak dapat nak terima. ta payah paksa diri, walk off je la kan.

anyway. kepada kawan aku tu, aku harap die akan okay. time heals. sooner or later, okay la tu. maybe she's not the right person and maybe you deserve a better one. who knows, right? :) patah tumboh, hilang berganti. mungkin bukan sekarang. tapi in the future. hal-hal hati macam ni, kita ta payah rushing. ta payah nak caricari. nanti die datang sendiri, bile dah sampai mase.

weeewit. aku bercakap macam kauselor terhebat la *sangat* pulak kan. herm. bukan ape. aku cume kesian kat kawan aku tu. semoga die akan sembuh segera. jangan sedey-sedey oke. if both of you were meant to be together, then you will no matter what :) jangan sedey-sedey okay^^ u are the best~

it's me,little ain~

bicara tentang hati

lalu,gusti putri tergamam di bawah pelantar bahtera.

mendengar khusyuknya si laksamana berzikir.

suara merintih,penuh syahdu.

tanpa mengeluh nafas kasar.

tanpa penuh rasa jemu.

Tuhan,ingin ku goda seisi alam.

biar tunduk,pasrah.

aku terpanggil utk post entry baru ni,pagi ni. entry ini ingin bcakap tntg hati. 

ye,hati. tp bukan hati aku. sbb kisah hati aku taleh crite kt cni,diam2 sudey.

bcakap tntg hati,mmg payah. tlalu byk persoalan,tlalu byk kemungkinan dlm jwpan yg confirm2 dh x pasti.

sume org nk rse perasaan sayang dan menyayangi. jgn nafikan itu.

jdi,bile dh dpat peluang,knp sia2kan?

aku xpaham betol.

knp org tegar utk buat org yg diorg sayang saket?

oke,kalo x syg,knp kapel in d very 1st place?

jgn seksa hati org.

what goes around,comes around.

ingat tu.

aku ta boleh bla bile tau kwn2 aku atau sape2 yg saket sbb l o v e.

masuk y latest ni,dh 3 kot dlm bulan ni.

kesian kesian kesian.

tatau nak bagi nasihat ape,sbb nasihat aku mmg ta boleh pkai.

mcm ape yg wani ckap,aku suke seksa jiwa sndri.

ye,itu aku.

jdi ta boleh buat ape ape.

jauhi cinta.

mungkinkah itu?

nasihat ape yg tbaik boleh aku berikan?

....................................................

tiada apa2.

sbb aku bukanla org tbaik yg boleh buat sume tu.

hanya tuan hati je yg tau mcm mane nk let go mnde tu.

ape pon,pcaye la ckap aku,

time heals.

aku sokong semua dari belakang.

bangkitlah kembali!

gusti putri menangis

sunan juga

namun kenyataan harus dihadapi

takdir Tuhan

mati itu pasti,hidup itu InsyaAllah 

with love,

little ain~

i'm still breathing

I leave the gas on
Walk the allies in the dark
Sleep with candles burning
I leave the door unlocked
I'm weaving a rope and
Running all the red lights
Did I get your attention
Cause I'm sending
All the signs that
The clock is ticking
And I'll be giving
My two weeks

Pick your favorite
Shade of black
You'd best
Prepare a speech
Say something funny
Say something sweet
But don't say
That you loved me

I'm still breathing
Though we've been
Dead for awhile
This sickness has no cure
We're going down for sure
Already lost a grip
Best abandon ship

Maybe I was too pale
Maybe I was too fat
Maybe you had better
Better luck in the sack
No formal education
I swore way too much
But I swear
You didn't care
Cause we were in love

So as I write this letter
And shed my last tear
It's all for the better
That we end this here
Let's close this chapter
Say one last prayer
But don't say
That you loved me

it's me,little ain~

buhsan

uhh
dari td aku dok kt meja ni
study marketing
since aku missed kelas smlam
agk kagum dgn diri sndri sbnrnya
dh almost 4 hours kot *hoho*
tp last2 aku online jgk
mntak maap ye haji romle

tp bile dh online ni
aku saket ati plk
dok edit2 blog mnde alah ni
byk mnde lagi kot yg aku tatau dan aku nk tau
dull gile kot aku pnye ni *masyam*
lgi byk aku nk tau,lgi lame aku dok mngadap
tp lame2 aku pon dh mule rse buhsan
aku pon rse nk marah

ain2
nak marah je keje kau
xpnyabar langsung
tp nk buat camane,dat's me
*sigh*

aku tepon abah td,tepon ibu x dapat
abah kate line celcom rosak dh 3 ari
go and call the celcom people to fix laa *aiyak*
erm
xde ape sgt pon cakap td
cume bgtau aku nk exam
abah bagi kate2 smangat *insaf kjp,sayang abah*
aku pon gitau aku training dgn agk terok skrg
then,abah pon ckap la
''haa,,sebok training,belaja jgn x igt plk''
adesss
pelepuk atas dahi
ye2,ain study abah *hee*

i wanted to talk to ibu actually but i couldnt
because abah wasnt at home at that time
so,i'll call her again tomorrow
uhhh,,how i miss her
rse mcm nk mkan ketam masak lemak ibu buat
the best oooo

nk ckap psl comot plk
*sigh*
he texted me just now
telling me dat he's not going to call me tonight
he was very upset,i know
i think,they had made the decision
because comot was crying
i felt pity for him
for both of them kot
hmm,,entah la

putus..
itu ke jalan tbaik utk comot dgn die?
they love each other
but then,the girl went out with her ex bf without telling him
comot was mad because he figured those things out when he was checking up her laptop
her gf told a friend of hers
saying she still love her ex bf
uhhh
harus ke? *annoyed*
aiya~

it has been four years kot
asal laa die buat camtu?
comot tu baik gile kot
penah comot gadoh dgn aku sbb aku tnye die asl die xapprove testi aku kt fs
die ckp die xnak gf die marah,jeles
pdahal kami kawan je pon
betape comot syg gf die
.......... *speechless*

ape pon,comot akn tepon aku nnti
die akn cite kt aku,so aku sabar je la
xnak push die,biar die ambik mse utk dri sndr
i know how it feels when you are betrayed by the people you trust
especially the one that you inted to spend your whole life with
*experience is the best teacher*
hohoho :)

so,to comot
i just hope that you'll be okay
face the reality
maybe she's not the one for you
you deserve a better person
be strong
time heals *trust me*
wishing you all the best :)

sedey :( *bg pihak comot*
nk dgr lagu katy perry
*i'm still breathing*
sob3

it's me,little ain~