fight!

i'm having difficulties to breath.
with every breath i take, i make sound.
my hands tremble for only God knows why.
my whole body shakes as the adrenaline rushes inside.
i can feel my heart pumps the blood and it smashes my chest real hard.
heavy breath, really.
i know i sound like i'm dying.
pathetic sungguh.
i was struggling in front ibu just now.
tried not to shed a single tear in front of her till my lips trembled.
felt like i failed her.
felt like i failed abah.
felt like i failed the whole family.
felt like i've sinned.

dear God,
i'm not finish yet.

it's me, little ain~