Permata Yang Dicari

Hadirnya tanpa kusedari
Menggamit kasih cinta bersemi
Hadir cinta insan padaku ini
Anugerah kurniaan Ilahi

Lembut tutur bicaranya
Menarik hatiku untuk mendekatinya
Kesopanannya memikat di hati
Mendamaikan jiwaku yang resah ini

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

Dialah permata yang dicari
Selama ini baru kutemui
Tapi ku tak pasti rencana Ilahi
Apakah dia kan kumiliki
Tidak sekali dinodai nafsu
Akan kubatasi dengan syariat-Mu
Jika dirinya bukan untukku
Redha hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu

Ya Allah
Engkaulah tempat kubergantung harapanku
Kuharap diriku sentiasa di bawah rahmat-Mu

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to be honest, everytime aku dengar lagu ni, aku rasa sedih. sedih sangat. mungkin lagu ni terlalu bermakna kott. kalo dihayati lirik ni, doa sebenarnya tu. huhu. and aku rasa macam aku takde ape. this song doesn't represent me at all. haha. well, i don't live trying to impress other people other than my abah and ibu. but i know that they have thought me everything about agama, how to cover my aurat, how to make friends with other people, how to respect older people. and i know that i'm trying my best to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, and also most important thing is to be Allah's servant. i know i can never be good enough. i committed sins, then i ask for Allah's forgiveness. thus, i'm giving my best to be everything that i want to be, not what others want me to be. i pray every single day so that God will send me someone who can guide me, lead me the way, and teach me to be a better person in the future. as long as i know what i'm doing, and who i am, then i'm gonna walk along, be confident and be humble. 

ouhh, entry yang takde motif sebenarnya. i'm still not myself. some things that's bothering me these days, that's why. i'm sorry about this. 

it's me, little ain~